Monday, October 17, 2011

Let's see how long this will last...

I say that simply due to the fact that I am absolutely, positively HORRIBLE at following through with things that require commitment.  I hate to admit it but it is definitely one of my major flaws.  One may ask why on earth would I felt compelled to make up a blog.  Well, fact of the matter is I like to think I live a pretty interesting life.  I get into some things are are definitely shake your head and giggle out loud-worthy.  I have my friends, encounters, and certain situations to thank.  Nevertheless, life for me is...interesting. Once realizing my life is so interesting, I bought a journal in hopes of recounting said interesting thought and situations (insert inability to commit here).  I don't know, maybe this will be more successfull since I can write while I surf and stalk on facebook (kidding!!!).  Secondly, I can honestly say this last year has really changed the definition of "Cynthia".  I have been through ups and downs, as most people do in this game called life.  However, I have never learned so much and changed from experiences as I have recently.  It's something I want to look back on, if nothing else, and just be in awe at what path I have taken (while at the same time burying my head in my hands and shaking trying to remember why I was thinking what I was thinking at the time)  Furthermore, I tend to forget a lot of events that happen in my life until someone reminds me with the, "Hey Cynthia, remember that time when..."  Therefore, I would like jot down some of these events before the senility gets the best of me! 

I suppose this is the part where I talk about myself, right? (Something I am EXTREMELY proficient not really).  Birthed and raised in the L.A. area of Southern California.  I guess you can say I did the average things that most average kids and teenagers do.  Hung out, made friends for a lifetime, and had my single-mom wish she would've dropped me off at the pound when she had the chance.  Had my life set up the way I wanted it to be when I used to dream of what it would be like to be an "adult":  Go to school, have a job, get a place of my own, date boys, party, yadda yadda. However, 18 years of planning went out the window in a matter of days.  One day, I decided to meet with an old friend who was like a big brother to me.  Big brother was a Marine recruiter and somehow, someway convinced me that life could be so much more adventurous in the Marine Corps.  I can honestly say, he never lied to me.  The Marine Corps opened the door to opportunities to accomplish things I never thought I would be able to do!   Go through bootcamp, be in a technical job, physically fit, have and raise a baby without losing it or forgetting to feed it?!?!?!?!?!   No way, not this girly girl from Cali. Anyone that knew me well NEVER saw my life be where it is at now.  But honestly, I wouldn't have it any other way.  If nothing else, this just goes to show that anything is a possibility in my crazy but amazing life.  =)

Superhero with a tiara instead of a cape explains it all.  As I said earlier, I have grown and learned a lot over the year and one of the things that has grown has been my strength.  Mentally, physically, emotionally, faith, etc.  Most importantly, my faith which has allowed me to grow and strengthen myself in the other aspects.  I will not lie and say I was voted "Best Christian" by the heavens however, simply letting go and letting God has allowed me to realize that no matter what I'm gonna be okay and to lean on him.  It has allowed me to live my life, a life most are not able to.  Hence the superhero complex.  However, contrary to my background and EXTENSIVE military training (haha), I am still a girl at heart.  I'm independent, yet I like the feeling of having someone there (friends, family, etc.).  I hang with the boys and drink and swear like sailor, yet will gladly drop that for a girls night out.  And with those two aspects you can see complete opposite realms.  Complexity, which describes me.  Different...Not expected.... More than meets the eye.  Whatever you wanna call it, that's what it is.  I still have yet to meet the person that can describe me to a "T', including me.  It's easier once you get to know me to know who I am, I suppose. 

So here goes, let's see how long I can keep this going!  Maybe this will be my only blog!  Haha just kidding.  Let the life invasion begin!  Blogging today, perhaps twitter tomorrow??  One step closer to my reality t.v. show and tell-all book!